I tell people I’m on a diet. Don’t know why, really. I guess I just don’t want to keep it secret. So now I have people telling me that I must be joking. They tell me I look great. Have I accidentally sabotaged myself?
While it is nice to get compliments, having been 120 pounds for 20 years since age 18, weighing more is unusual, and weighing way more even more so. I’m not really used to or comfortable with seeing rolls of fat on my belly (a feature that clothes camouflage and so I fool people). I had some leeway for a while, but no more. One book I read said that your optimal weight is what you weighed when you were finished growing/developing, plus or minus 10 per cent, which means over 20 pounds less than my current weight. Even my current goal of 10 pounds’ loss, will leave me over my optimal weight, but hopefully those pounds will not be around my middle any more.